Monthly Archives: August 2016

Trying something new

After 12 years of living with palindromic rheumatism and experimenting with various lifestyle and dietary changes I’ve made the decision to start taking new medication in addition to the hydroxychloraquine that I already take.

Doing yoga and avoiding gluten and eating healthily has served me pretty well. But it has not cured me. I am still flaring. I am still fatigued. And I am still none the wiser as to what triggers a flare, or what will make it go away once it’s there.

I’ve resisted taking methotrexate for a long time. The side effects looked too scary, and I kept reasoning that as I was generally coping with my arthritis, there was little point in putting these scary drugs into my body.

But sometime over the last twelve months, my perspective has shifted a little. I experienced a three month wrist flare in the winter which led to a lot of stress and worry that permanent damage was likely. I’ve had scans and x-rays and luckily, that’s not the case. But even so, living with that constant flare for three months really did interfere with my quality of life and ability to do some of the simplest tasks. My yoga practise suffered too.

On top of that, the unpredictability of flares, and an extremely severe shoulder flare a couple of months ago made me think “You know what – you don’t have to live like this” and decide that it was time to try something new. I felt like a failure at first and had to work through a few feelings around that, and the fear that comes with starting something new and potentially as damaging to my health as the arthritis itself. But I reasoned – if there’s a problem, I come off it. If the side effects are horrible, I come off it. If there’s no change. I come off it. I’ll be no worse off than I am now.

As well as the fear, there’s positive emotions as well. The fact that methotrexate DOES work for a lot of people gives me some hope. I know people taking it with no side effects at all. And the idea of being pain and flare free, even if it only works for twelve months, is extremely appealing.

I started my first dose on Sunday, and will be taking folic acid four days later. I will be closely monitored at first (blood tests every two weeks) and will be careful to stay away from people with horrible infectious diseases as I will be more likely to catch infections and illnesses as a result of the drug.

I’ve been told that it will take around three months to know if it’s working, so for now, it’s a waiting game. I wait to see if there’ll be side effects and I wait to see if it’s going to work. In the meantime, I continue with the lifestyle changes that I know help me, even if they don’t cure me.