I haven’t felt much like writing since my last post and this will just be a short one. Last week, I made the very difficult decision to put my cat to sleep (I hate that euphemism, but it’s the best there is). I have had him for around thirteen years, longer than my relationship and it’s the longest I’ve ever had a companion animal. He’s been getting old for a while but over the past three months he’s got very frail and it’s been so hard to watch him getting thinner, weaker and more confused.
Last week, I knew that it was finally his time. He was just going to get more and more frail and it was going to be harder and harder to watch, and harder and harder to stop him from suffering. He’d been so full of life and conversation for most of his life. But of recent months, he seemed to have little joy left, and had even stopped coming for cuddles. Having made the appointment, I then had a week to come to terms with it. It was really hard knowing what was going to happen. I made sure I spent some time with him, and he also had a few visits from friends who came to say goodbye.
So, today, I’m feeling a little sad. The house seems so quiet without his meows and so empty without his presence. Thankfully I still have one very fluffy cat left to keep me company. She was getting neglected over the past few weeks as he took up so much time and attention, so at least we can now give her the cuddles and play that she needs.
Meanwhile, I have had pain (mostly wrist or shoulder) about half of the time since my last post. So still no improvement from the antibiotics. About half way through my ‘trial’. Still not ready to give up hope that it’ll help.
Next week, I start on the expert patient programme. I am looking forward to it and am curious as to whether I’ll learn anything new or useful. It’s on Tuesday so I’ll be sure to report back.
I’ll finish with a photo taken of Tofu in 2007 when he was fit, healthy and curious. He was a little cat with a big personality. He had a long and happy life and will be much missed.